Last night after the second outburst of crying from Jacob in the middle of the night, I gave in. I gave him the binky. Jon couldn't believe it. I was exhausted!! He has slept one night without waking up and crying/screaming the four nights we've been doing this. Now... don't judge, I'm moving, I'm tired, I've been packing/deep cleaning every day this week, and let's just face it, I guess I'm a wuss-and love to sleep. Even though I wake up at least 3 times a night because somewhere on my body aches, I don't have to listen to my kid screaming, and then get up, calm him down, go back to bed, lay in bed for over a half hour trying to go back to sleep. I am a little disappointed in myself, but for now, I feel it's the best for Jacob and for me. Maybe not for Jon- because he seems to be stronger than I am during any of these things.
Tonight we'll start packing to move to an apartment, and not only is it going to be a change for everyone, Jacob's going to need that security to cope with the move.
I know what you're all saying... "Oh my gosh, what a pansy, I can't believe she gave in, after this long schpeel about how she gave up the binky, blah, blah, blah." Well my friends, all I have to say is, yes... I am, but going by my gut feeling and giving him the stupid binky that he never uses during the day and only at nap time- just so I can sleep... call me whatever you wish, but thank goodness we'll be out of this mold, and away from this area...since right next door is turning into a drug/alcohol rehabilitation center for men, I'm pretty happy where we're getting out when we are and how blessed we've been to be able to leave and find a place that's in our same ward.
Speaking of which, we won't have internet anymore... trying to cut on costs. We've cancelled our dish, and have joined the Netflix world for 13 bucks a month. Hopefully I'll be able to catch up on everything a couple of times week by going to the library or finding it somewhere else.
So... as for now, goodbye technology friends and much wasted time on Facebook, hello to my much needed house cleaning, preschooling, crafting, scrap booking, photography/editing, and baking.
9 comments:
I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU!!!
JK...Oh well... he won't have it forever so no one needs to worry.
Okay, next, no internet? Is that even possible. Get the high speed with cox for 19.99 you can watch movies and shows on there. Seems more logical. Just saying. I couldn't do it! Oh and the cheapest 19.99 speed is FAST enough I promise. It's such a gimmick.
Make sure you post pictures of your new place.
Worry about the binky later--perhaps AFTER Ian comes, because Jacob is going to need to adjust to not being the baby anymore too. His front teeth are baby teeth, so they're not going to be ruined. And he's not too old for a night binky anyway. If he were 4, we'd be having a different conversation, but he's not even 2 yet!
You're the mamma, you know him best. You're right to follow your instincts right now.
Ahhh....I'll miss you. J/K I hope you do stay caught up on blogging though. I love spying on you guys. Good Luck with the move and with Jacob! Much love!
Don't sweat it. When he's ready, it'll be easy. Our big boys hated paci's once they hit 4 months, but they sure loved their bottles. That was our battle. But we waited it out and they gave it up with no problems. :-)
<3 you guys!
I don't see a problem with it. :) But, then again...I don't have kids. However, I do know that you ROCK and so I don't think it's a big deal.
Also....technology will miss you. I will miss you!
Hi..so you have to move. Bummer, but I cannot blame you for wanting better and safer surroundings. About Jacob and his binky...that is like a blankie. It gives them security, love, comfort...all the things that mommy can't give at the times he is in his own bed and alone. These things remind him of his mommy. As one of the posts said and I agree with is to wait until after the baby has been here awhile. Jacob is going to be out of "position" as number 1 in your life and he will see some of your time and attention going to the new baby. Binky's are like sucking thumbs or fingers..feels good and tastes good. Focus on preparing him for the new baby..give him lots of attention now and even after the baby comes. Have him be your helper and give him lots of praise. He will soon take the role of big brother very seriously and love it and the new addition to the family. Let him hang on to what he has now...even the moving to a strange building is upsetting to a child...their comfort zone is gone and you have to create a new one. Good luck from one who had 5 boys and 1 girl...they loved their fingers, binky's, blankets, stuffed animals and their soft mommy...all ties in together.
Forgot to say that they all have beautiful teeth...and also are happy, contented children. Plus they still love their mommy!!
You do what ya gotta do! And you're the mom! Trust YOUR instincts!
What? No internet? I think we will hear you crying louder than your little guy.
I remember Lisa cried so hard for her binky one night that she had no voice the next morning. To this day I still wish I had given in, if it meant that much to her. You did the right thing. Don't worry, he won't go to college with a binky in his mouth.
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