I Put A Spell On You... Because You're Mine.

Tonight has been the first night I've been able to "let go" of the pacifier for Jacob. I think the reason why it took me so long... was that I was afraid of letting it go, because Jacob LOVES his pacifier. He hasn't been able to use it during the day (besides naps) since he was a little over a year. About two nights ago, I tried the "cut it, say it's broken, and have him throw it away" technique. Yeah... totally didn't work for him. He saw it was broken and REFUSED to throw it away. He kept saying, "Ma Ma!" then holding it up to me to fix it. I cried with him. It was a hard day in the first place, he hadn't napped and I was exhausted anyway.

So, I gave in and gave him a different one. But, ever since then, he has been waking up in the middle of the night not being able to find it, and now that he's in a toddler bed, it's way harder to find with no contacts in and the lights off.

Last night was the last time, because he wouldn't calm down, and I had to bring him into bed with Jon and I slept on the couch. NOT my favorite thing to do, especially since our couch isn't the most comfortable to even sit on, let alone sleep.

So, we just did our little routine, read, prayer, hugs and kisses, said goodnight, turned off the light, and shut the door. Oh, and we also put on one of those door handle things that are even tricky for adults to open the door with. He cried, screamed, yelled for me, for over 35 minutes, and is now finally asleep. He always yells for me, because just like the pacifier did for me... I always "save" him. When we decided to train Jacob to fall asleep on his own, I had to put headphones on and watch a movie (it took him 12 minutes to fall asleep).

This time, I did the exact same thing, but once Jon went to bed, I turned the music down and waited. I was impressed that it only took him that long. I was preparing myself to stay up for about an hour.

Just another milestone that we've gone through, crazy how time flies and how fast he's growing up. He's such a huge blessing in our lives and we thank our Heavenly Father every day for having him in our lives. Next step... potty training. BUT, thankfully we're waiting until he's at least 2 1/2. He shows no interest in sitting on that scary toilet, but loves to flush it!

On a side note, Jon felt baby Ian move two days ago. He had woke me up from kicking like crazy, and I grabbed Jon's hand and put it right on my belly. It took several kicks for Jon to feel it, but once he did, my heart grew. I love all my boys, Jon included. :)